I think the Lord is trying to say something to me... :)
I know I can trust the Lord, but I still get scared, worried and anxious sometimes... It seems like it has been one thing after another, but the Lord just continues to be right in my face letting me know that I can trust Him... Thank You Lord!
A lot of my comforts are gone that I used to have... I am not complaining, I just did not realize how much I leaned on so many other things besides God... I left behind in Texas: my son, family, friends, church family and everything I have EVER known.. (being with people who really know me and I really know them)...
I am having to grow up in so many ways and REALLY put my trust in the Lord... I do have to say that through of these tests and trials I have seen some ugly things in me. :( Like defensiveness, fear, pride, anger... Some of it has taken me by surprise, but I know that HE is not shocked... He created me, so He knows me...
Psalm 139: 1-4
O LORD, you have searched me [thoroughly] and have known me. You know my downsitting and my uprising; You understand my thought afar off. You sift and search out my path and my lying down, and You are acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue [still unuttered], but, behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.
I can say that I am thankful for these test and trials, HE allows them because HE loves me too much to leave me in the condition that I am in...
James 1: 2-8 & 12
2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
12Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.