I did not plan on writing this today... I read a tragic story earlier in an email that I got, and it made me sad, and then mad..
I won't go into great detail about what happened, because that is not what I want to focus on here.. But, this person took their own lives.. They were desperate and hopeless... I have been there too..
So, I went on a walk and started thinking... I started thinking about the times of my desperation and how there are people out there right now, who feel hopeless, maybe it is you, maybe it is someone you know and maybe someone that you would not even think it was... I am so tired of the enemy bullying people around.. To where we get in a place of hopelessness... WE ARE NOT WITHOUT HOPE! It is a lie!
I guess I just wanted to write this in hopes that someone who needs to read this, will... To tell you that it is NOT HOPELESS! Things always change. Whatever you are going through right now, will not always be going on... And, if you feel so desperate that you want to end it... DON'T! Just give it one more day, and after that, one more day.. There were times when all I could think about was holding on for one more minute, that is how bad it was... I would cry out to the Lord... I would call someone to pray with me, and just try to find someone to confide in.. Sometimes you feel like no one wants to hear your stuff, and when I felt that way I would find another avenue... I have called many, many, many prayer lines, sometimes the same ones, in the same day.. I have emailed tons of prayer requests to many ministries... JUST DON'T GIVE UP! EVER! Things will turn around, they always do...
I would like to post some prayer-line numbers and ministry web addresses that you can call or go to with your prayer request..
CBN: 800.759.0700 or click here to go online and submit a prayer request..
Daystar: 800.329.0029 or click here to go online and submit a prayer request.
MH Ministry: 888.637.4545 or click here to go online and submit a prayer request.
TBN: 888.731.1000 or click here to go online and submit a prayer request.
My email address is: firstname.lastname@example.org
You might be thinking after you read that scripture that you don't trust anyone... All you have to do is be honest with the Lord about how you feel.. He already knows anyway... He will do for you, what you can't do for yourself...
If you are someone that is reading this and all this prayer, and Lord stuff is new to you, you can read here about how the Lord got my attention...
And, if you are wondering how to have a relationship with the Lord... Just pray to God, and ask Him to make Himself known to you... To show you that HE is really there and that HE knows what you are going through... HE will! Just tell Him that you are tired of doing things your own way, and that you have sinned against HIM and tell HIM what you have done.. It is so freeing to get everything out in the light... And tell HIM you want Jesus to come in your life and be Lord of your life... Don't worry about saying anything wrong, just speak from your heart to HIM like you would to a very good friend...
If you do that and want to know what to do next, I would go to one of the ministries above and tell them that you just asked Jesus to be your Lord and Savior and they have free stuff that they will give you, that tells you how to walk out this new life..
Don't give up!!!